Well I'm Wrecked

http://amzn.com/B00FBZH7C8

Okay, I know you're probably sick of me discussing these books, (this is #3) but I just can't quit them. I wasn't going to post about these books anymore. I've gotten the least page views ever on the weeks I posted about these books, yet I just can't stop talking about them.

 I've said it before and I'll say it again; these books fucking wrecked me. 

Unattainable was unexpectedly rough. Not because of Tegen and Cage, which was also more emotionally intense than I expected. No, the real gut punch to this book comes from Ellie and Dirty's story. I thought I was completely desensitized after Undeniable, but Unattainable is brutal on the senses. 

I can officially say Madeline Sheehan rocks the fucked up love story like no one else. 

Warning: This is not a virtuous and tender love story. It's chaotic, ruthless, and tragic. This story takes love and kills it's innocence, steals away the pure moments, and crushes the hearts of the broken. A story born in childhood, tying one girl to one boy, leads to a destructive path--that hurts more than it doesn't, that shatters more than it heals--testing the love that binds the two through a lifetime. 

Of course we get Tegen and Cage's love story. Tegen is Dorothy's daughter and Cage is Deuces son. They grow up together in the Hell's Horsemen MC, only three years apart in age. Cage, being a chip off the old block, burns his bridges and has to build new ones. Cage has a lot of Deuce's traits but Tegen is an emotional hurricane all of her own. 

Cage is tired and broken down. He's gotten to a stagnant low place in his life and he's done with the bitterness Tegen has wrapped around herself. He takes a pickax to the walls she has built and begins to realize she's everything he's been missing. Tegen comes to realize the MC is her family and she's never had the right to be judging her mom as harshly as she has for years. 

Now, the dark horse of the story, Dirty. We've seen him in the first two books as a very minor character. Besides being outwardly dirty, Dirty is dirty. He only fucks club whores or prostitutes and only after he's dosed them. He can't fuck conscious women. He's the club's Dexter of date rape. Everyone's lovable rapist. 

Yeah, I wasn't sure where Madeline Sheehan was going with him getting his own story until he got his own story and I was all, holy fuck, now that's a story.  Dirty is one messed up dude, and when you find out how messed up and the reasons he's messed up, it's going to wreck you. Ellie and Dirty coming together is ugly pretty. It's as fucking poignant as it is beautiful. I was cheering for them to find the loving healing.

Suffice it to say, this story invoked feelings I myself did not understand. All rational reason flew out the window. I found understanding where there should have been none. I found sexual appeal and attraction where there should have been only disgust. I felt awkward to be experiencing the feelings and understanding I was experiencing for..... well, a rapist. 

Unattainable also gives us glimpses into Dorothy and Hawk's relationship, which has some dark and twisted origins. I don't even want to speculate on what Madeline Sheehan has planned for us in her next story Unbeloved. Nothing is ever cut and dry when you're dealing with the love lives of MC members. 

The only thing that annoyed me, and it's really minute, is Danny going back to being the one dimensional girl all decked out in pink. At the beginning of the story Cage say's he'll never have his bubbly sister back, but that's exactly how she's portrayed for the rest of the story. 

I will say, I got a sense of peace after finishing Unattainable that I didn't get after Unbeautifully. I'm still really looking forward to future books in the series, but I don't feel as desperate and angry about it. 

306 pages

Warning: This book contains violence, drug use, rape, and a whole bunch of other heavy shit not usually conducive to a love story. Reader discretion is advised. 

Thank You Madeline Sheehan!!!

For more on the Undeniable series and other books by Madeline Sheehan, please visit @http://www.madelinesheehan.com/

Breeder By Any Other Name

October has turned out to be a great month for sci-fi lovers! I've already posted on Kate Pearce's triad The Power Of Three The Power of Three - All Romance Ebooks and you'll have to stay tuned for Tracy St. John's Alien Caged already available at smashwords  http://www.smashwords.com/books/view/369557!  

Now I would like to present Cara Bristol's first ever sci-fi Breeder.  

ARe link: Breeder - All Romance Ebooks

Loose-Id link: http://www.loose-id.com/breeder.html

Amazon link: http://amzn.com/B00FX7L5FO

Breeder by Cara Bristol

To secure his legacy, Commander Dak, a ruling Alpha of planet Parseon, purchases Omra, a breeder slave. He intends to impregnate her, produce a son, and hand her off to his anointed beta partner. As Dak and Omra discover a sexual bliss banned by law, he begins to question the traditions and ways of his people, causing him to jeopardize his command and endanger the life of the woman he has come to love. 

I've been trying to pull myself together to write up something about this book that will do it justice but my mind is all...

Breeder is an emotionally stirring introspective look at a impassive patriarchal society that doesn't even have a word for love. Women are live stock. They are kept for breeding purposes only and an Alpha is not to debase himself by seeking pleasure on one. They are allowed to be used for sexual gratification by Betas but it's considered indecorous for an Alpha to exhibit any kind of regard for a breeder. 

Alphas take Betas as anointed companions based on compatibility. Any sexual urges they have can be satisfied in a traditional manner on their Beta. To do otherwise is not only seen as a weakness it's against Protocol. 

Dak is an Alpha commander and everything he has ever known is changed when he obtains a breeder. Omra awakens longings and emotions in Dak he should find aberrant, but still he's drawn to her. That along with her ability to obtain knowledge and sexual capacity for pleasure make him question the teachings of his world and what is truly best for his people. 

Omra

Omra is so resilient. She has been cultivated not to question how she is treated, or have any expectations for life at all. Seeing the world, Parseon and Terran (Earth), from her eyes is really a trip. The passion and love that grows between Omra and Dak is palpable. The sensuality of their sexual discovery is off the charts, only made that much more exceptional by it's essence of the forbidden.  

Alpha Commander Dak

Dak really stole the show for me. I completely fell in love with him. Dak is a born leader who deeply cares for the well being of his people and his world. His journey to do what's best for Omra, himself, and his people is truly moving. 

Cara Bristol has outdone herself. Breeder is outstandingly well written. This book not only made me re-examine how I see the world but how others see the world. I'm a big fan of Sci-fi and I believe this story should rank as one of the best in Sci-fi erotic romance. I wasn't even halfway through when I realized it was going to be one of my personal favorites. 

I was so enthralled with this book that I felt I needed an outside perspective. I actually had my historical romance reading buddy read this one. I asked her mainly because she doesn't normally read anything with violence/abuse towards women or even DD, so I knew she would help me see anything I was missing. She only affirmed that this was a great read. 

This is her text after finishing the book, minus spoilers;

Just finished Breeder. I liked it, well written, kept me interested and on the edge of my seat. I could have done without one scene (implied violence to a breeder in market place), but it didn't annoy me or take me out of the story. I would read the next one in the series. 

I'm interested to see how it will be received by her fans unaccustomed to Sci-fi. Personally, I love, love, LOVED it. 

Warning: Breeder contains explicit m/f sexual activity, some m/m sexual practices and domestic discipline. 

For more on Cara Bristol please visit her @http://carabristol.com/

Thank You Cara Bristol!

Sex Appeal

My favorite gal pal Tracy St. John posted a while ago about what she finds sexy. I loved this. I think it's fun to see what others think is a turn on, authors and readers alike. Sexy and what is a turn on is so subjective, yet we have some commonality somewhere that is causing us to enjoy the same books.

Seeing Tracy's list made me think of mine, so of course I must share it with you.

Sex Toys:

Spanking belt. There is just something about getting spanked with a belt. I can't see a belt without getting turned on. 

Vibrating butt plug.

I love anything that vibrates but there is something magical about a vibrating butt plug. Xavier, from Cherise Sinclair's My Leige of Dark Haven, believes a vibe in the in the rear and a vibe on the clit is the perfect orgasm recipe and I couldn't agree more. 

Movie:

Okay, this one is hard for me. The movies I think are sexy don't usually turn me on. If I were a guy looking to get laid I would not invest time watching a chick flick like Dirty Dancing or even uber sexy Sex and Lucia with me. I am a dude. I really don't have one particular movie that gets me going but strangely enough movies that are a big turn on for me are movies like;

Seriously, I know that's messed up. 

And

I find Spock insanely attractive.

Old or new, it doesn't matter.

Which leads me to my adoration for off beat characters. These are the guys that turn me on. Whether it be movies or books, I often enjoy the secondary characters even more than the leads, and adore it when they get their own stories. 

Beards:

I'm not just talking about the obviously beautiful guy with a beard.

Although he is delicious.

No, I'm talking about,

The average looking bad-ass with a beard. Does it for me, every time.

Music:

Big time.

Car:

1969 Z28 Camaro

I have a serious thing for muscle cars, always have. The Z28 does it for me more than any car ever made. 

Villian:

Khan

Yes, Star Trek again. 

I really have a thing for guys with a superiority complex. Plus he's ancient, savage and superior in every way. In. Every. Way.  Moth say hello to flame. Who wouldn't want to harness that kind of power between there nimbles at least once? 

Lucius Malfoy

Yeah, I'm pretty embarrassed to admit this one. He's arrogant, mean, bigoted and pretty hateful. His only redeeming quality is his love for his wife. Maybe this is the danger of being an adult when you read these books. Idk. When I saw him in the movie, I found him even sexier. 

I have issues, let's move along.

Position:

Face down. Ass up.

In bed is nice.

Pushed down on a cold hard surface is better. 

Celebrities:

This changes pretty frequently for me. For a while it was Jason Statham, then Jason Momoa, then Chris Hemsworth, then Stuard Reardon, then Stuard Reardon again.

He's worth repeating. Also my Tranis. 

(my fellow FoKs know who I'm talking about)

Right now the guys I'm mentally drooling over are,

Dylan Freakin Mcdermott

He's 51 and I'm really questioning immortality or a super race because he is not aging. Not that I can tell. I need to see him naked and up close for a full thorough examination before forming my full hypothesis on the matter. Anyways, he's got that authoritative look, a strong jaw line and hands built for spanking. 

I want to be in trouble with him badly.  

Ryan Gosling and Joseph Gordon-Levitt

Yeah, I'm surprised too. I'm not twenty-anything or a hipster, yet being in between these two making out would make my year. 

Action By Man:

Unexpected Kindness

When I see a guy doing an unexpected kindness he becomes the sexiest man alive. Stopping to help a random stranger struggling to carry or reach something. Going to get coffee for a homeless person. Sticking up for the underdog. Saying something nice just to make someone smile. Rushing to help out when help is needed but not expected to me is heart melting. 

Date With My Honey:

Naked Day

Yep, day time dates are my favorite. 

We do the night dates. We get a sitter, dress up and go out, but those nights rarely ever end in sex. They are fun, sometimes social and often romantic occasions that usually end really late. Honestly, we usually pass out when we get home or to our hotel. These are happy times but not very sexy. 

Day time dates are sexy in a way that I know my husband is going to rip my clothes off and do naughty things to me for as long as he wants the second we get home from dropping our son off at school. 

Afterwards we get to bask in the glow and be lazy. Sometimes we get lunch, sometimes we walk around town, sometime we go to the beach, and sometimes we just laze around and make love again a time or two before we have to pick up our son from school. 

Lazy Without Children

(that's why she's smiling)

On these days we always laugh, romp around, and just let ourselves exist in our own little bubble.These days are always relaxed and I never feel more...everything. Sexy, in love, cherished, sated. 

If you're married with children and you've never had a day date, I highly recommend it. It's like playing hooky from life for a few hours with your favorite person. (that's assuming your spouse is your favorite person)

So, what is your sexy list? What in life turns you on?  Have you ever asked your spouse this? 

I asked my husband and he said, "Hot naked women, especially you. I find turning you on sexy." 

I said, "No car, song, movie or a new set of golf clubs...Anything?" 

Nope. 

He wants a beer and he wants to see something naked. I can appreciate that. 

I would love to see more sexy lists!

Terms and Conditions

 A while ago I wrote a post, The Couples Rut, all about how to comfortably and openly discuss your sexual wants and desires with your partner in non-confrontational ways. That discussion can be difficult no matter what kind of relationship you are in. The last thing I suggested was watching different informative videos together to see what sticks.

The video I used as an example, Guide to Kinky Sex for Couples by Tristan Taromino, is one my husband I sat down and watched together a few years ago.

 

Adam&Eve.com  

In this video Tristan Taromino walks you through different aspects of kink in four sections. Each section delves a little deeper into light BDSM. The couples, who are porn stars, share their explanations in interviews. Then they play out each segment of information in full  penetration 20-30 min clips.

Although my husband and I have already surpassed everything on the video and then some, it was fun and extremely informative.

In fact I wish this was the high school graduation/pre-college sex-ed video. Let me explain. At around ten years old you get the sex-ed puberty video. We all remember that horror show. I'm sure you also recall the Don't Get Your Girlfriend Pregnant / STD sex-ed video played to unfortunate students entering high school. For me, it feels like it would be the natural progression of things to show this one to the eighteen to twenty something crowd.

Teaching kids everything and nothing since 1913

But I digress.

There wasn't anything new to me in the guide, in fact at one point my husband rolled his eyes and asked if there was a intermediate to advanced guide, but then something very illuminating happened. My husband, who is dominant and has kinky streak a mile long, discovered there are terms for certain facets of our relationship.

He found out what he does to me in and outside of the bedroom is considered BDSM, and he would be deemed a Dom in some circles. It also kind of freaked him out. He had never heard the terms and conditions of BDSM spelled out before. Even in the most basic form.

Sure he knows what a safe word is, but definitions for things like Dom/sub, Top/bottom, and Power Exchange were completely new to him. At one point he paused the video and turned to me and said, "I'm a dominant.... I'm a Dom." He sounded surprised and he looked concerned.

It was clear he did not like knowing this about himself. Not at all.

I was shocked. It had been a revelation on both ends. I thought he knew. I have a gift for saying the wrong thing, so I worked on not saying anything while he was having a Ah-ha moment.

At this point in our relationship we had been together eleven years and some of the stuff he did to me (still does) could be taken straight out of a BDSM novel. He'd just been doing what he liked to do. With one informative video what he liked to do was warring with his preconceived notions of BDSM.

This was before FSOG made BDSM mainstream, but I'd been reading erotica and BDSM books since Clinton was in office. I knew the terms and conditions of BDSM. What's more, I'd living out naughty scenes in many sexcapades with my uniformed, kinky husband for years. I naturally assumed his entertainment rag of choice Playboy covered things like BDSM terminology.

I was wrong.

My husband had attached quite a few stigmas to BDSM. While he was completely fine considering himself kinky, he was considerably less comfortable finding out he was into BDSM. Again, this was years before BDSM was in vogue. All he'd known of BDSM was from porn. Short, daunting clips of porn. I'd tried to tell him that most of that stuff is the extreme hard core version of the lifestyle, but from his reaction I'd surmise it hadn't gotten through.


We had some discussion, but like I said he was a little freaked out and I backed off. Putting labels on things can do that. Getting comfortable with your sexuality and the spectrum of what you're into is only step one if you are in a couple. Step two is letting your partner know what doors are open, then accepting the parameters of your relationship while letting your partner's sexuality grow at their pace.

I had to let him digest what he had just taken in.

We had almost two kink free weeks, in which I almost regretted watching the video. I know he needed to process, but waiting patiently isn't something I'm great at.  Luckily, he didn't take too long to sort himself out, and when the kink started back up again, it started with a vengeance.

Overall I think the video is great for easing into kink, and for someone who doesn't know any terminology whatsoever. Watching the interviews and explanations first and then watching the dirty stuff may be a good idea. The video goes by quickly, but a big chunk of the three hours is full penetration examples.

Know that these types of videos and discussions may lead down unexpected roads.

 

I just thought it'd be fun

All this, because we watched a kinky porn guide. Personal growth is often in the least likely places.


Opening up communication with your partner can be nerve racking. For some fun, helpful idea please click Couples Rut .